What a wonderful story of strength! We are all working on overcoming something whether it be mental illness or deep anger at others. There is always hope for getting stronger, healthier, and wiser.

Originally posted on Fantastic Em:

im fine

This phrase had become all too familiar to me over the last few years. It is easy to downplay and try to cover up the feelings of anxiety, especially since it isn’t visible on the outside. But it always creeps back up and causes incidents.

My issues with anxiety began around the age of 14. I didn’t understand what it was until around 17 though. I can remember always feeling nervous, never wanted to raise my hand during class or speak out, and I would always sit in the very back of the classroom and bury my face in a book. In these moments I always just assumed it was the “awkward teenage phase” but it was more than that. My first actual panic attack happened during my last week of high school. I remember walking down the hall and getting this sinking feeling of panic, my heart raced and…

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Afraid to Think of Growing Old

my headshot with short hair

2007 when I had short hair

I always wanted to be younger and dreaded growing older. Sure, birthdays were fun, but the reality that they brought haunted me. With each year, I become less innocent, more guilt-ridden, less joyful, more anxious, less healthy, more messed up.

Just the thought of being older terrifies me. I do not want to use a cane or go into a nursing home. Nor do I want to watch my children leave the home or my spouse die. In fact, maybe I do not even want a spouse or children.

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Mickey Bars, Fireworks, and Disney Pins

Disney castle fireworks

Fireworks over Cinderella’s castle

Today was very tiring since most of it was spent outside in the sun at work. However, it was a rather fun Fourth of July overall. Disney is certainly crowded on this day but still a great place to be.

Some of my favorite parts were the following:

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Happy Almost Fourth!

Tomorrow will be the 4th of July or Independence Day. Although I am not much of a fireworks fan, I loved the Disney ones that are special for today and tomorrow. The only nice part of waiting two hours for my bus was seeing them.

I am very nervous about the crowds tomorrow. However, my prayer is that everyone is safe and happy. Hopefully, I can help make that happen.  Continue reading

How do teens think about body image, beauty and bullying? 3 perspectives from around the world

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These are all great responses to body image. I really think that youth need to hear more of this.

Originally posted on TED Blog:

Body image, beauty and bullying. In TED-Ed Clubs, students are guided through the process of making a presentation on an idea they feel passionate about — and dozens of students in clubs around the world have boldly chosen to talk about how to combat negative body image, distorted images of beauty and the bullying that springs from rigid rules about appearance.

Watch — but more important, listen — to these three inspiring perspectives on body image, beauty and bullying from teenagers in three different countries.

Julia Takata TED-Ed Club presentation

A presentation on body image: A competition with yourself

Julia Takata starts her presentation by recalling an experience she had in dance class. The short story: She started comparing herself to a classmate. “Because I was younger, I was very susceptible to what other people had to say about me. [I kept wondering], ‘How I could change myself?’” says Takata, a student in the…

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Being the Fat Girl Still

There is nothing more rare, nor more beautiful, than a woman being unapologetically herself; comfortable in her perfect imperfection. ― Steve Maraboli

There is nothing more rare, nor more beautiful, than a woman being unapologetically herself; comfortable in her perfect imperfection. ― Steve Maraboli

When I look at myself in the mirror or think of my weight, I believe I am a huge person. The awkward, lonely overweight girl that I used to be still is my self-view. Thus, trying to look nice, being complimented, and looking at myself are all very stressful experiences.

However, I lost a great deal of weight with my eating disorder five years ago. Despite that fact, the same scared feeling and desperate desire to lose weight is inside of me. It haunts me all of the time, making it hard to eat, get dressed, take a bath, etc.

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One Negative = Five Positives

Me trying on a hat

You can see the positives or the negatives, but it is hard when people point out the negatives more.

Ever notice that when you hear one negative thing you tend to hang onto it for a long period of time? What about the positives you are told? How long do you remember those?

Yesterday, someone told me that I looked “really bad” because of the sick-looking dark circles around my eyes. The rest of my break was spent wonderfully in the bathroom as I tried to fix my face without any makeup. When I returned a few minutes later to work, a coworker greeted me and stated, “You look so beautiful.” Yet another coworker stated the same thing about 30 minutes later.

Still, I am fretting over what I was first told. Similarly, the guests who are upset weigh on me heavily, making me sometimes forget all of the happy people that I smiled at, waved to, or helped.

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The Fear of Being a Leader


Leader or follower

Are you a follower or a leader? This questions is fairly common. You will hear it at school, job interviews, and other similar situations.

However, it still through me off when a coworker questioned me about it yesterday. Instinctively, I wanted to say “follower.” After all, I fear controversy and do not want to make anyone upset. Being a leader means you often have to make choices that others might disagree with or even argue. That is certainly something that I am skilled at dealing with or understanding.

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Adult Autism/Asperger Syndrome Assessment in Females


This is so very helpful! I really wish I had known this in my teenage years.

Originally posted on Tania A. Marshall, M.Sc.:

Adult Autism Assessment in Females

Typically, females with Aspergers are picked up for Autism in the teenage years with depression, anxiety or an eating disorder. Some are dignosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. For adults, no-one knew of Asperger Syndrome or Autism back in their childhood. So a comprehensive early childhood and teenage autobiographical account is a very important important piece of an assessment. In addition, other perspectives from people who know the person very well are important. A comprehensive assessment of an adult can include a variety of assessment tools, depending on the person. Generally, a comprehensive adult diagnostic assessment includes the following:

An autobiographical account from earliest memories until approximately age 25 (usually 4-6 pages)
An interview exploring present day context, day to day functioning
An exploration of the reasons for an assessment
An exploration of family history, including one’s own children (if any)
A exploration into the history of mental health, previous medical, psychiatric, psychological…

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Coping Skills: #85. Take a Break from Work

Me sleeping

We all need a break.

Many times, work has been a helpful coping skill for me and others I know. You are distracted, busy, and hopefully doing something you are passionate about or helping others while meeting a goal. There are many benefits to working besides earning money.

However, sometimes we need to take a break from work as a coping skill. Perhaps you are burned out, physically sick, mentally exhausted, or emotionally drained. Maybe it is time for this coping skill then.

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