Finally, I have found a purpose in my life. Hopelessness and self-hate used to blind me from seeing a bright future. However, events and people in this past year helped free me from past hurts so that I was free to explore my dreams. Now I know what my mission in life is: I want to touch other people.
This does not need to be a spectacular, noteworthy thing. Would I love to save lives, travel around the world helping others, and influence millions? Sure, but that is not my purpose.
I need to focus on caring for those around me starting with myself. Once my own needs (which are not selfish by the way no matter what the lying voices in my head hiss) are cared for, my ability to reach out to others will be more effective. Although I might never be fully cured of mental illness, I can live a hopeful and semi-normal life while advocating for others.
Currently, I am trying to be a bright light and sign of hope for those around me. Although not viral or perfect, this blog is part of that mission. Throughout the next year, a goal of mine is to start speaking to youth groups, schools, and caregivers about mental health and my journey. Slowly but surely, I hope to make a difference in the lives of others.
This video really inspired me. Watching it reminded me that even the littlest thing can influence the life of another person. While meeting with a friend the other day, I heard a similar story. He told me that he once reached out to an outcast at school. Although he only spoke to the bullied youth for a few minutes, he later learned that he stopped the other boy from committing suicide. Even the smallest word and comfort can save someone years of pain.
Even if I help one person in my whole life, I believe that I am doing the right thing. Having this purpose does not make me better than anyone else. It simply gives me the will to keep fighting my own battle while coming alongside others who are struggling. Together, we can get through this and make the world a better place.