Because I saw the late night premier of The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies last night, I did not take one of my evening medications which makes me very sleepy. The lack of it kept me riled up and awake until a bit after 4:00 A.M. Still, my alarm was set for 8:30 because I have so much work to do.
When I awoke this morning, I felt strangely perky. “You will crash in a few hours,” a friend warned. But I did not.
Without my medication, I sprung through the day with a strange energy. For the first time in a long time, liveliness pulsed through my body. It was almost like I was a new person.
Going off medication without help from a doctor (and even sometimes with medical assistance) can be dangerous and stressful. Many people who take prescribed medicines struggle to cope with life without their pills.
Yet, medication can alter personalities. That is a scary but sad truth. I have witnessed friends with bipolar disorder go from bubbly and vivacious to brooding and sluggish. Classmates talk about the smothering cloud that medication for ADHD inflicts on them. In the past, Prozac and other pills made my mind race, my body sleep too long, or my appetite increase unnaturally.
There are both benefits and disadvantages to taking medication. Part of me would like to live without my pills and feel free to sleep, wake, and feel the way my body would normally. However, that would deprive my brain of needed chemicals to help me function. Going off my medicines could lead to many struggles such as failure in school, stress at work, and even grave self-harm. That is a risk that I do not want to take.
Everyone should weigh the pros and cons of taking medication with a doctor. Do not simply think of this issue as black or white; there will be hardships whatever you choose. There are times when people on medication will wish that they could quit. Hopefully, those who really need medicine will find it more of a relief than a burden. Despite my annoyance with taking my pills, I certainly am thankful that I have that tool for my mental health.