I understand this so well. Doing new things does hurt as does pushing yourself. Yet, it does become a bit easier with time. If only that empty feeling would go away and stay away forever.
Alone- Edmund Dulac
Lately I’ve been spending much more time doing new things. Things I’ve never got to do in a long time. Going out to eat, or spending the day watching movies and video games with a friend are amazing experiences for me. However I can’t help but feel empty when I go home. It’s as if the happier the time I have, the harsher the it feels when it’s over. Am having a hard time processing such feelings. At the end of the day my loneliness still finds a way to haunt me.