Fear of Seeing People

Lion sleeping

Sometimes I just want to be alone and not be found.

The past few days, I have kept pretty quiet in hopes of being left alone. A few friends were contacted, but I mostly just stayed silent at home. Fear of seeing people or them even knowing I was back in the state overwhelmed me.

Was there a certain person or group of people that made me nervous? I am not sure. However, my panic set in whenever I imagined anyone finding me.

Is this PTSD? Isolation from depression? Social anxiety from Aspergers? I am not sure.

What I do know is that there are times when I just must be alone. Maybe I do not even want to be alone but I must. It is a strange feeling and overpowering to say the least.

Tomorrow, I am returning to Florida. Most of me is excited. Yet that fear of being found still lingers. Will it haunt me even in the Sunshine State?

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10 thoughts on “Fear of Seeing People

  1. I don’t know what to say so this comment is just to send you love from my part of the world. xx 🙂

  2. mewhoami says:

    Interesting. I’ve had this happen to me before as well, but for different reasons. Sometimes we don’t want to be found and I think that’s perfectly fine as long as it’s only temporary. I imagine you’ll feel different when you get back to Florida.

  3. ladygracet says:

    Good Luck on returning to Florida. I know you will make it through everything.

  4. ecteedoff says:

    I often have periods of time when I panic at the thought of engaging with others, and the energy it would take. I will say this. At least for me, while the idea seems disastrous and my body and mind are telling me not to, when I am either forced into the situation, or make myself do it, after the first minute, my anxiety quells. I also find that, unless I have a really shitty conversation, hate the person, or just spend too much time with them, I do come home tired but feeling energized inside. I might have a social hangover for a while, but it tells me deep inside that sometimes the one thing I don’t want to do, is the one thing that is going to help me the most. Food for thought. Hope you feel better and wish you luck.

  5. I understand that you wanted to be left alone. I wish I knew you were town we could of just went for a cup of tea and talked for a few. I really miss. But I hope all is well

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