Being agreeable and getting along with others has always been important to me.
Sure, I was the shy, antisocial girl who answered too many questions in class and barely talked in the hall. Peers stopped talking when I entered the room, believing me too naive to handle anything slightly inappropriate. Others giggled at my lack of social skills or complained to my face about strange traits.
Still, I wanted others to like me. This continues to be a goal of mine. The more people who like me, the better. Even if I do not like the other person, I hope he or she respects and enjoys me.
This way of thinking sometimes causes me to feel like I am living between two sides, stuck pleasing everyone. I try not to choose sides. These sides can be large scale (i.e. political party) or small scale (i.e. favorite movie).
Before saying what I think, I like to listen to others. Then, I can choose if I want to agree whole-heartedly with them. Otherwise, I can find a way to not argue without saying that I fully agree with their opinion.
Most often, however, I find myself trying to surf between the opinions of others. When you are in a group of people, there are bound to be disagreements or differences. I try to stay between the two sides, being kind to both without agreeing or disagreeing with either.
This leaves me feeling so stuck sometimes. However, I am not sure how else to live. Can I somehow stay neutral without feeling so stuck? How do others manage?