After arriving back in the USA a few days ago, I’ve been busy cleaning out all of my old boxes. Although I just moved back from China, my goal is to move abroad again for my Master’s Degree soon. Thus, all of the clutter in my old room and closet needed to leave.
As I pulled out old boxes and rummaged through dusty drawers, glimpses of the past kept appearing.
My fingers were stained pink and blue from oil pastel paintings made in residential treatment for my eating disorder. Babies surrounded by darkness, blood-red monsters devouring me, trees half blossoming and half diseased – images of despair and hope mixed with every color.
Wow. My last Thankfulness Thursday was in February of last year. Lately, my thoughts have drifted to dark and ungrateful places. My hope by bringing back these days is to encourage me to enjoy life in a new culture even when it is difficult.
1166. Spicy food – I never liked spicy food back in the US. To be honest, I never really tried it but convinced myself that I couldn’t take it. Here, nearly everything is spicy. It’s difficult to eat at times but so delicious. I’m realizing that I’m tougher than I thought.
The other day, I was looking at jewelry inspired by Vincent Van Gogh. One of my favorite artists, this man had a tragic life that ended in suicide. He was so talented but only sold one painting in his whole life. Others looked at him, judged, laughed, and turned away instead of seeing his talent. Instead of seeing the deeply burrowed pain in him.
No one realized the brilliance of van Gogh until after his death. This made me wonder a dark question: is there a point to being creative if no one cares?
Narnia is finished now, but life is even crazier. I feel like I am going to explode. However, I am trying to breathe deeply and keep pushing forward. Here are some links that made me smile this week (with one sad one). Hopefully they will bring a grin to your face too.
Finding a release is a huge part of recovery. However, knowing what that is can be difficult. Still, release is a great coping skill – if one that is a bit abstract until you explore more skills. How do you find release? Writing, music, art, dancing, nature, running, boxing? There are many ways to do this.
I have recently picked my journal back up and have began writing. However, I hit a roadblock in my writings. Traveling back to discuss something that had a big emotional impact on my life 4 years ago was enough to make me put the journal down for a few days. I plan on writing my entries in here… with some give and take information. Writing is usually a very good release for me, as most times it is difficult for me to explain how I am feeling without becoming an emotional wreck (given the topic).
I hope that in your journeys through life you find something that helps you release (something legal that is). I find that writing helps us explore our emotions, thoughts and allows us to focus on a specific topic or just ramble. Because sometimes we need to just ramble about nothing.
Sigh. There is so much to get done this weekend still. I am so exhausted but have a draining week ahead now. Maybe something in my life really should change. At least I was able to enjoy a great movie with my friend today (thanks Lydia!).
Anyway, here are some links after not having them last week. Enjoy!
Before I give my weekly list of links, there is something that must be said: People are not objects that can be laughed at or used without consent. Well, maybe we are, but that is not the way it should be. This does not matter if the other person is older, younger, a minority, not a minority, disabled, working for you, or different in any way. Especially pay attention to those who work in customer service. They are people, not objects.
End of rant. Here are some things (many still having to do with Christmas) for you to check out today. I hope you enjoy them.
Customer service (like that at Cahoots Cafe) is hard but can be so rewarding.
Making customers smile at work to day by offering to help them unexpectedly reminded me why I love my job. Sure, there are many struggles. However, even a waitress can help make the world a better place by impacting others one by one.
Now that I am done with finals, work is picking up a bit. However, there is still time for my weekly links. Some are a bit funny while others focus on Christmas which is just around the corner! Hopefully, you enjoy them.