An Array of Awards

Once a Victim ~ Now a Survivor Award

Once a Victim ~ Now a Survivor Award

Receiving awards on my blog makes me both thrilled and nervous. After all, people love hearing that their work is appreciated. However, knowing how to accept that compliment graciously is not as simple as many Oscar recipients make it seem. Many cultures teach us to feel a strange sense of shame in appreciating compliments. I wonder where that began.

Anyway, here are some awards that have piled up over the past year. I am very grateful for them and look forward to passing them on to other wonderful bloggers.

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Listaliciousness: Blaming the Gerbils, Hopeful Oscar Speeches, and Spock’s Death

Silly Family

Just being sillly,

What an eventful week this has been! Auditions, Disney, callbacks, work, school, National Eating Disorder Awareness Week, theater…I feel like so much happened but it all flashed past.

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Listaliciousness: Book Problems, Realistic Princesses, and Bradley Cooper Films

Where do the weekends go? Honestly, the days that I am not in class rush by faster than I can keep track of and enjoy. Only a few more months. That is my constant reassurance.

Anyway, this list is shorter than normal. However, something is better than nothing, right? The items are a bit silly and light-hearted, but that is what I need right now. Just a rest and some laughter.

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Helping Others While in the Midst of Suffering

Standing with Joni Earkson Tada who struggled with depression after being paralyzed

Standing with Joni Earkson Tada who struggled with depression after being paralyzed

Yesterday, I was honored to receive an award that I dreamed about winning ever since I heard about it several years ago. My classmates and faculty nominated me to win the Friend of ADA (American Disabilities Association) Award at my university. The reason for this was my work blogging and advocating for those with mental illness and aspergers.

For most, yesterday was a dream come true. A lightness lifted me as I carried my bouquet of flowers around campus and blushed as people congratulated me. This award seemed like the first step toward helping others on a more global scale and winning the Noble Prize one day.

Yet, another part of my day was filled with gut-wrenching sobs and suicidal thoughts. As I cried so hard talking to my mom that I nearly collapsed, I shuddered to think of what people must think when they passed by my heaving form. What a failure I was to the award that I had just received!

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One Year Anniversary

Girl looking up confused

My very first picture on the blog from a year ago

Today is a very special day for me. A year ago, I began this blog! When I first began writing, my original thought had been to be a bright light who encouraged and supported others. Hopefully I have accomplished that. However, Rose with Thorns has proved to be much more than just a positivity site.

Instead, this blog has become a place to express myself, meet new people, and hear stories from followers all over the world. You have all touched my life and taught me how to move forward in recovery. Writing daily has built discipline, hope, and writing skills in me over the past year. Honestly,  blogging has been one of the most influential and inspiring parts of my life.

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Being OK with Second Best

All I Want is Perfection

Have no fear of perfection – you’ll never reach it. – Salvador Dali

Last Wednesday, I went to the next round of my Toastmasters speech competition after winning first place at my club. All day, people questioned if I was nervous. My past experience at two competitions and multiple tournaments with speech team made me feel calm.

Well, I was calm until I drove to the event. Fear gripped me as I tried to steer my car and contemplate my speech. School had taken away time from practice, and play practice had drained from me the emotion that I usually invested in my topics. Perhaps this was a poor decision. Maybe I should give up right now, I thought.

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Awards Galore and What to Do with Awards?

Since December, I have received several awards but not blogged about them. However, my decision to not post on them was not simple forgetfulness. For the past few months, the concept of blogging awards has bothered me. Am I serving you, my readers, by accepting and giving awards? Is this seen as prideful, boring, or a waste of time? Do people enjoy reading about and getting awards?

After thinking over this, I came to a final decision. For now, awards will still be a part of my blog. That might change in the future, but for now, they still serve an important purpose of honoring others and learning to accept compliments. However, instead of focusing on each award in a separate post, I am going to update all of my award nominations every three to four months. That seems like a reasonable amount. Please give me any feedback about this choice, better ideas, and your thoughts about blogging awards.

The LindaMadHatter Jesters Award

The LindaMadHatter Jesters Award

Anyway, that is enough about my decision. Here are the awards that I was nominated for by wonderful fellow bloggers. First of all, I was nominated by Linda Mad Hatter and Lost in the Labyrinth for the LindaMadHatter Jesters Award. This award is for any blogger who deserves it, for whatever fun loving reason.

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Turning Stress into Victory: A Followup of Yesterday

After having such a stressful morning yesterday, I wondered how I could keep going.  Perhaps dropping the speech tournament was the best idea.  Many ideas and anxieties sped through my mind.

Finally, I decided to leave with another group of people.  Although this required leaving a class early and not picking up a classmate, it saved me the pressure of driving to a busy and unfamiliar place.  Thus, the transportation was figured out despite my desire to please everyone.  Instead of worrying about my class believing me the perfect student or taking care of the other girl coming, I needed to think about myself.  As selfish as that sounds, sometimes you need to focus on your own life instead of trying to control everyone around you.  In the end, we only can choose our own actions, thoughts, and feelings.  I can influence others but not force them to react in a certain way.

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Second Star for the Blog of the Year 2013

Blog of the Year

Blog of the Year

Today, my family is celebrating the birthday of my little brother Mario by going to a train museum before Christine leaves for Mexico.  Speaking of her, I am going to shamelessly promote her blog.  You can follow her at La Gringa.  She is pretty much the opposite of me Рfunny, charismatic, practical, outgoing, zany, charming.  Although she is not a writer, her blog should be full of fun stories and crazy thoughts.

Speaking of wonderful things, I was nominated for the Blog of the Year Award 2013 by hopeandloveradio.  This is the second star for me.  Although 2013 has now ended, I hope that I can continue to nominate and accept this award.  One of the fun things about this particular award is that you can receive it up to six times.

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Awesome Blossom Award

Awesome Blossom Award

Awesome Blossom Award

Flowers have always held a special place in my life.  I view them as symbols of beauty, growth, strength, and grace.  Obviously, they have beauty because they stand out from the grass and dirt with lovely colors and shapes.  Growth helps them to become stronger and endure despite the weather, temperature, and animals.  Then their grace can be seen in how they seem to dance in the wind.  Flowers just seem to exude these qualities.

Thus, I was excited when Belsbror nominated me for the Awesome Blossom Award.  Being thought of as cultivating my garden or blog touched me deeply.  Thank you so very much!

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