In the Wide and Narrow Alleys
Here is the fourth version of my bucket list. There are some things taken out and some added. Dreams come and go with time, but many have stayed the same.
Teaching and living in China is the biggest change since the last update in August 2015. However, I also transitioned to a new role at Disney World before coming to Asia and grew to a more confident and happy person. Continue reading
This relates so much to how I feel. Some days, I know where life is taking me and am confident in that. Most days, however, are still filled with doubt about the future. And that is okay, I think. At least, it is fine for now.
If I had one single dream, there is no doubt that I’d chase it ferociously. Thing is, I have too many that I can’t articulate, so I find myself stuck. I love fashion, I love writing, I love photography, I love music and gardening and painting and people and…and…and…
I’ve always struggled with this- with having to define myself into one mold. (Which is probably why I’m 28 with an undeclared major.) There are just so many things that interest me, how is a person to only pick one to succeed at? To support their family with?
I was watching some documentary about these people who were so passionate about mountaineering they made it their life’s work to summit the worlds tallest mountains. This was their specific passion even though alarmingly dangerous, and they took it very seriously. In a country where you can pretty much do and become whatever…
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“Those with the greatest awareness have the greatest nightmares.” – Mahatma Gandhi
Each night fills me with terror. Sleeping, which so many people seem to love, is one of my least favorite activities. Not only does it feel like a waste of time, it also brings awful nightmares.
Perhaps I am the villain one night, killing millions of people until everything around me is red. The next evening, a friend or coworker is kidnapping me. Almost worst are the nights when people tell me how they truly feel, how much they really hate me. Sometimes that is the hardest to hear.
Normally they are never in photos together, but they made an exception.
Last night was one of the best of my life! My sisters came into town to see the parks for the first time and celebrate my birthday. On our final evening together, we went to 1900 Park Fare.
Here you meet Cinderella, Prince Charming, Lady Termaine, Anastasia, and Drizella. It was truly magical!
Everyone has dreams. Sure, some people pretend that all things fail and life has no point. However, even they hold a secret candle of hope burning for something. Perhaps owning a new dog or seeing a shooting star. Those might seem like simple pleasures, but they might be someone’s deepest dream.
Today, I presented my senior capstone on Professional Writing. My last point in it addressed my future plans and dreams: learning and working at the Disney College Program, continuing my blog, teaching English in South Korea, freelancing for clients, and receiving my doctorate at Oxford University. A couple of these might take 10 years or more (South Korea and Oxford). However, that does not stop me from starting to work to achieve them now.
There are joys ahead.
Lately, hopelessness has become a major problem for me again. Thinking about the future fills me with dread. Looking ahead, all that I can see is darkness, emptiness, and loneliness.
Instead of dwelling upon this fear, I must try to find even small elements about the future that are exciting or wonderful. All of us have some of those things to look forward to even if they are small. Thinking about them can help us to have a goal we can aim for instead of just running from anxieties.
Yesterday was one of the most draining days of my life. Riding into Chicago on night and out of it the next evening on a bus is exhausting even if you are seated the whole time. Thankfully, a classmate was unexpectedly with me on the journey there, and I met a hilarious, kind woman on the way home.
Then came the audition. There were over 200 people present at one of the many locations vying for only 2,000 roles. Once I realized this, I still tried to do my best but also found great peace in acceptance that getting into this position would be nearly miraculous. Thus, when I was not offered a role, I left feeling still excited about being part of the Disney College Program in another way. Living there, still being a part by making the park magical even if I am not dressed up, and taking classes will be amazing. This is still my dream.
However, admitting that I was not cast to others…that is terrifying. Everyone seemed sure that I could do it or convinced that it would be a waste of time if I was not a performer. Letting others down is the real pain that is throbbing in my heart today.
This movie shows how there is no time like the present and age should never hold you back from living a full life.
70. The Second Best Exotic Marigold Hotel
Yesterday, I took a break from work and writing to see this film. As bright, inspiring, and witty as the first one, this movie made me feel warm inside and cheerful. Even better, the thought of growing old was less daunting. Because of the numerous hopeful messages, I chose this film to review on Media Monday.
Synopsis: Since the Marigold Hotel has been such a success with the elderly residents, the ever-optimistic Sonny decides to try to find a sponsor to open another one. However, this task turns out to be more difficult than he had supposed as he also prepares for his wedding while trying to fight off his rival. Meanwhile, the residents of the hotel have romantic decisions and life choices of their own to struggle through together. Evelyn and Douglas are somewhat in a relationship but both a bit anxious as Evelyn embarks on a new job. In a moment of drunken confusion, Norman unintentionally sets a hit man on his girlfriend Carol. Several new residents have moved in including a charming American, Guy Chambers, who Madge has her eye on although she is already stringing along two other men. Meanwhile, Muriel is helping Sonny but remains as cranky as ever. All the while, time continues to tick as the residents try to forget but cannot help but remember their age. Continue reading
Happy start of the week! Since it is my spring break, I am hoping to have more time to blog. However, with work and homework assigned over break as well as practicing for Narnia, this might prove to be difficult.
Still, I look forward to having some free time to recuperate such as seeing films. Also, this Thursday will be my audition for Disney in Chicago. So, having some well wishes and prayers would be very appreciated. 🙂
Anyway, enjoy the post and let me know what links from last week caught your attention. Also, I would love to know if you, your children, or someone that you know dressed up as a literary character this past week. Continue reading
Sorry for the short posts this week! School, work, and life in general have been crazy. As I have mentioned before, simply finding time to breathe and think straight has been difficult.
Anyway, several wonderful dreams came true this week. I feel like I am floating on clouds. Despite all the difficulties of this semester, I am getting through it. Beyond the current struggles, a brighter light shines for my future.
Firstly and most excitingly, I was accepted into the Disney College Program! In a few months, I will call Disney World my home. 🙂
