One Thousand Thanks: 1044 – 1054. The Cast of Narnia – Part One

Me as a dryad in Narnia

I am a dryad in Narnia.

Normally, I write a note to each member of shows that I am in, but lately my time for anything extra has vanished swiftly. Thus, I decided to make this post the first of two parts thanking all of the amazing people who were in or helped with Narnia.

1044. Ben: Aslan/Father Christmas/Professor Diggory – Your majestic voice, huge smile, and warm personality made you perfect for this role. However, you are even more than a great actor; you are a magnificent person. Thank you for taking the time to listen and laugh with me even about silly things. The fact that you show care for everyone is so beautiful!


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Appeasing the Invisible: A Poem

Surrendering a Dream

It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to someone else. – Erma Bombeck

Appeasing the Invisible

Nothing has more power than the invisible.
It pulls at me, urging my fingers to type on the keyboard,
Hissing in my ear to play with words like play-dough,
Snickering at the plot hole that sucks my story into a black hole.

Should I ignore the invisible?
Some enclose themselves in a steel balloon.
No fiery critics arrow can puncture their flight or plunge them to earth.
However, humans cannot breathe in the elevation of these works.

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Ten Things to Say to Someone with Anorexia

Dining room table with the quote "The people who give you their food give you their heart." - Cesar Chavez

“The people who give you their food give you their heart.” – Cesar Chavez

After my article from yesterday about what not to say to people with anorexia, someone requested that I write on helpful remarks to make to someone who struggles with anorexia. Right away, I loved that idea. So often, we are told what not to do. That is helpful for knowing what not to make mistakes about but leaves us in the dark regarding how to act instead.

Hopefully, this list will be beneficial to those who support people with anorexia nervousa. These are some of the most encouraging comments that I have received as well as things that I wish people would say to me. Also, I would love to hear encouraging stories about kind comments you have heard from others. Affirming that positive is something that we should not forget to do.

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You Are a Hero

Everyone has the ability to be a super hero. Not all people make that choice, but they have the ability to change the world for the better.

That might not look the way it does in movies. As far as I know, people cannot fly, shoot fire out of their hands, scale buildings without equipment, or pick up cars. This is not the type of super hero that we see in the world.

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Putting Yourself In Someone Else’s Disability

Most people strive to understand others around them. We want to be emphatic people who help those around us. Whether it is listening to our children or encouraging a friend through a difficult situation, our social interactions often focus on meeting the needs of others or them meeting our needs.

Understanding others is not an easy task, however. If you have a loved one with a mental illness or disability, this task grows even more difficult. Not only are they are a different person, they also have an unique brain wiring and genetic makeup that is extremely difficult to relate to without frustration and confusion. This difficulty also affects them as they become guilty of the time you spend and annoyed at not being understood.

That is why putting yourself into someone else’s disability is so important despite the struggle. Here is a great example of this.

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Coping Skill #47. Listening to and Obeying Support People

Mario and Anna Rose on the phone

On the phone with Mario copying me

Throughout treatment, people have told me to differentiate between my healthy voice and ED or the eating disorder’s voice. Separating the two helps you grow in strength and confidence. Yes, my thoughts may be screaming not to eat all day, but my body and true self really want to care for myself.

However, there are times when the voices in your head and urges to use unhealthy behaviors are just too loud. That is the point I was at for the past few days. In times like this, knowing how to act and finding the energy to do it seems impossible. Just breathing and staying alive is all you can manage.

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Coping Skill #44. People Watching

People who went on the tour with us in England

People who went on the tour with us in England

Last night at my job, my anxiety began to ramp up as people demanded things. Normally, I can seat customers in a calm fashion. However, I have a hard time adapting when someone wants to go to a different part of the restaurant. It might sound silly, but struggling with change is a typical asperigan  and OCD trait. Doing something different than my way (which is in my brain “the right way”) is very stressful.

Anyway, one lady snapped at me when I tried to seat her away from the door. “We want to sit right here,” she demanded. Surprised because most people hate being by the door, I flinched and hurried away.

“I won’t look or smile at her the rest of the evening.” Muttering to myself, I tried to not cry. Why did such a simple thing hurt so bad? Why did I have to react so strongly to her request. Sure, my day had been long and going home alone since my family is gone was frightening. Still, my overreaction could not affect my job performance.

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