Collage of Me

Meeting Cinderella for the first time

Meeting Cinderella for the first time

Drawing, painting, and other forms of art have always been hard for me. Perfectionism makes me want to tear up everything that I create.

Collages, on the other hand, are simple enough for me to do and fun enough to keep my attention. I love looking through magazines to find images that represent someone or even myself.

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Listaliciousness: Father’s Day, Women on Money, and Hidden Meaning in “Lilo and Stitch”

Family upon couch

My family

Happy Father’s Day! I miss my father so much on this special day. At least, we talked on the phone which was wonderful.

Anyway, here are some links. A few are Father’s Day themed while others deal with history, coping skills, and Disney of course. Enjoy!

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Self-Hatred: Part Self-Doubt and Part Self-Disgust

Without even looking down, I tugged. The denim refused to budge. Surprised, I turned my attention to the jeans from my sister. As much as I hate pants, these ones were acceptable to wear on the odd day when I felt so inclined.

The jeans, on the other hand, did not feel so inclined to me. After another tug, I realized that there was no way the buttons could close over my hips. The jeans that had fit the last time I tugged them on now were too small.

I hate recovery. That was my first thought. Hate it so much. Almost as much as I hate myself.

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Coping Skill: #36. Making a Collage of Yourself

Meanings Writing utensils - major and education/school Cat - stuffed animals and cats Mask - theater Pompom person - treatment Roses - name and love of flowers Books - literature Jade dog - longing to travel especially to China Glass slipper - Cinderella Crown - love of princesses  Earrings - my love of those too Trophy - public speaking  Cross - faith Movies - Lord of the Rings Shell - river by house and nature

Meanings
Writing utensils – major and education/school
Cat – stuffed animals and cats
Mask – theater
Pompom person – treatment
Roses – name and love of flowers
Books – literature
Jade dog – longing to travel especially to China
Glass slipper – Cinderella
Crown – love of princesses
Earrings – my love of those too
Trophy – public speaking
Cross – faith
Movies – Lord of the Rings
Shell – river by house and nature

A few years ago, as I battled majorly with restricting food, I came to the realization that I did not know myself.

Sure, words came to my head when someone asked about me. I was a girl, homeschooled until college, going to school to be a teacher, Catholic, etc. The facts of one’s life are simple to recite. However, they do not fully explain who you are. These are just a starting place that give a foundation for yourself.

When someone wanted to know more about who I truly was, I turned to the opinions of others. Anna Rose is awkward, sweet, naive, childish, quiet, obnoxious, and so on. I would never watch that movie or say that word. My willingness to work with children meant that I should be a teacher because that is what I wanted. Since I laughed at taunts, teasing did not hurt my feelings.

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Coping Skills. #25. Dressing Up

Coping Skill 25: Dressing Up

Coping Skill 25: Dressing Up

Eating disorders often dictate how you must look.  Many girls I met draped themselves in flowing material in hopes that no one would see their body.  I, on the other hand, feared roomy clothing.  Instead, my outfits emphasized my figure.  Although different, both of these tactics served the eating disorder instead of the person.

For some men and women, dressing up fancily is a chore or trigger.  However, it can also be used for recovery.  Allowing yourself to feel beautiful is wonderful.  Although difficult to master at first, this coping skill brings confidence, encouragement, and hope for a future without body image problems.

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