Finals week is here! I just hope that I can get through it and be prepared to leave for Disney next Sunday. That being said, I will try to write a bit each day. However, some of my posts might be reblogs. On the positive side, that will let you read some material that touched me.
Here are some links. There are not 10 today, but I hope that you enjoy them.
The Wizard of Oz was one of my favorite films growing up.
Well, it is Thankfulness Thursday again. Following up on last week’s post about movies, I am going to write about inspiring films that I am thankful for viewing. Since the first post highlighted my life to the age of 11, this one will begin when I was 12-years-old. Hopefully you will enjoy this list and find some new movies to watch. If you have some films that have touched your life, please leave their name in the comments. What are you thankful for concerning this type of entertainment?
681. The Wizard of Oz – I watched this at a much younger age. However, the character of Dorothy continued to grow on me as I grew older. One of my dream roles was being her in a show. The witch’s cackle terrified me, but listening to my father do her voice as well as the lion made this movie even better. Plus, as someone deeply depressed, this reminded me that my home was so important despite the fact that I longed to go to a fantasy world. (Age 12)
Walking to a seminar on the first day through fields
Well, today is the dreaded day. Saying goodbyes, taking a last walk around, trying to see everything in the Ashmolean on the third visit (and still failing), seeing my favorite author’s tomb, meeting some great new people, hearing the boys’ choir at evensong – today was packed and amazing. But part of me feels crushed. How can I leave the place that I finally feel like I belong? I love my family, but going home to my meaningless daily life with no friendly interaction or freedom to spread my wings as well as my broken heart is all I can see for the rest of this summer.
However, I am trying to be optimistic. With people leaving to travel Europe or return to the home that they missed, I feel a bit strange and out of place. This summer still can be great; it will be what I make of it. But the pain is still real.
I peeked into the ‘restricted section of the library’ or Duke Humfrey’s Library that was used in Harry Potter.
Being in Oxford has been like a dream come true for the most part. The people, the learning, the architecture, the history, the nature. . .I love it all so very much! Already, my thoughts have been consumed with ideas of how to return.
However, I want to enjoy where I presently am and by excited about that. Already so much has been happening. Thus, I will give you some of the highlights on this Thankfulness Thursday.
One therapist told me repeatedly to allow myself to experience the taste and food of England. This comment annoyed me greatly. How could I allow myself to do that? What was he thinking? Of course I could not enjoy food.
However, I am beginning to allow myself to do that. It is terrifying but also fun. Plus, the confidence that my parents are helping me and supportive of me reminds me to take care of my body.
Yesterday was rather traumatizing, and I am still recovering today. A large truck (not quite a semi but still big) turned from the wrong lane and hit our car, smashing my side into the barrier on the side of the road. Luckily, my mother and brother are both fine as am I physically. However, the images that flashed through my mind will not leave me alone.
Anyway, this proved to be a perfect time to use a coping skill. Thankfully, I had brought along the new book I am reading aloud to Mario: The Hobbit by J. R. R. Tolkien. This fantastic novel helped take my mine off of the accident.
My amazing father and little brother Mario a few days ago
Following the post from last week on wonderful women, writing about great men from history seemed fitting. There are numerous leaders, writers, artists, and activists that I look up to from all eras. Making this list and narrowing it down was difficult. Perhaps sadly, I thought of more men than women initially. This is probably because we hear more about men from past civilizations. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this Thankfulness Thursday list and would love to hear about men that inspire you.
544. William Shakespeare – Of course I need to mention my favorite author. People may debate the authenticity of him writing the plays, but I remain enthralled with his words. Without his great mind, English would be a different language and theater would be a bit duller. Continue reading →
Gollum from The Lord of the Rings has always had a place in my heart. Despite his murderous desire for the ring and loathsome appearance, I love this character and wish that he had a happy ending. Deep down, he reminds me of myself.
People usually raise their eyebrows and laugh uncomfortably when I mention this. So let me put your mind at ease. I am not so attached to anything that I would murder someone. My body image is not quite so bad that I think that I look like this creature. And I certainly do not attend to bite off anyone’s fingers.
However, some similarities still remain. Part of me tortures my more sensitive side, claiming that I am a monster who is unlovable. Sometimes, I lack trust and rely on myself instead of allowing others in to my life. If we all searched ourselves, we might find a bit of Gullom inside who constantly berates us while claiming to be the only thing that saves us.
Several months ago, a great blogger named adopting james wrote about his ideal bookshelf. Ever since then, I have pondered what books would be on my shelf. Because of my great love of books, many posts have focused on reviews and inspiration found in literature. Yet once again, I felt compelled to write about wonderful reads. Here is a quick list of my ideal bookshelf that includes numerous genres, authors, and time periods. Some relate directly to recovery while others are simply amazing. Hopefully, these books will not be repeats of those that I have mentioned before.
The Twelfth Night by Shakespeare – Who doesn’t love a romance story filled with humor, confusion, heart-ache, and eventual joy? Viola inspired me to be unselfish but strong. All of Shakespeare fills me with mirth, but this play is probably my favorite. Continue reading →