Fear of Seeing People

Lion sleeping

Sometimes I just want to be alone and not be found.

The past few days, I have kept pretty quiet in hopes of being left alone. A few friends were contacted, but I mostly just stayed silent at home. Fear of seeing people or them even knowing I was back in the state overwhelmed me.

Was there a certain person or group of people that made me nervous? I am not sure. However, my panic set in whenever I imagined anyone finding me.

Is this PTSD? Isolation from depression? Social anxiety from Aspergers? I am not sure.

What I do know is that there are times when I just must be alone. Maybe I do not even want to be alone but I must. It is a strange feeling and overpowering to say the least.

Tomorrow, I am returning to Florida. Most of me is excited. Yet that fear of being found still lingers. Will it haunt me even in the Sunshine State?

5 Hidden Gems of Disney World

Here is a post from my other blog. I hope you enjoy and maybe check these places out if you are in Disney World.

Traveling by 5s

Going to Disney World but want to experience something other than the huge thrills and most popular attractions? Here are some of hidden attractions that are wonderful, humorous, and/or peaceful. They will give you a new and exciting look into another part of Disney World.

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5 Most Thrilling Disney Rides

Here is a blog that I just finished about Disney World. ­čÖé What thrilling rides do you enjoy?

Traveling by 5s

Looking for a big and thrilling ride at Disney World? Here are some of the largest, most scream-inducing attractions in the four parks. They can be enjoyed by those who are tall enough and want an adventure.

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Listaliciousness: Princess Lessons, Dr. Who Legos, and Perfectionism

Fountain at Downtown Disney

Fountain at Downtown Disney

Despite stressful situations with others, I had a wonderful last two days. Yesterday, my workday started later, so I was able to roam about the Magic Kingdom for a while. It was very enjoyable and relaxing.

Here are some links. A few are several weeks old, but I still wanted to share them. Enjoy!

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A Welcome Break and Time with Mom

My mom and I standing in the airport before taking off.

Off to England with my Mom.

This morning, I embarked to Iowa for the wedding of my college roommate. Not only does this give me a little break from work, this wonderful experience also allowed me to stay with my mother in a lovely hotel. Just hearing her voice brings a smile to my face. Seeing her is even better.

Sometimes, we all need little breaks like this. Hopefully, you do not need to fly across the country for yours. However, there are times when you need to completely alter your location to have a new experience. That is what I have found today.

What is the last break that you took? What are some ideas for breaks that you could utilize?

Listaliciousness: Color Photograph of Pluto, Fandom Musicals, and Prom Dresses

Tea

Afternoon Tea

One week of performances down, one more to go. Only a little bit more time before finals and Florida. Everything is rushing past me. I feel like I am clinging to a palm tree during a hurricane. Hopefully, my arms will be strong enough to keep hanging on despite the wind.

This weeks links are a very interesting blend of various items. Hopefully, you will enjoy the list!
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Listaliciousness: Allergy-Free Plants, Themed Weddings, and Twitter Birthday Surprises

Ready for this weeks links? These are full of hope with the coming of spring, flowers, weddings, and babies. Funny how most of them seem to fit into that mood and category.

Before the list, however, I wanted to let you know that I feel bad about how moody I’ve been. Perhaps you haven’t noticed it, but maybe you did. This past week was difficult. Maybe this one will be simpler. If not, I will try to respond with more grace and optomisim than I have been lately. Thank you all for your support. That is one thing that I can count on even when the rest of my life melts into a gooey mess.

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How Do You Respond to That?

Looking in the Mirror

How do you respond to certain comments especially when they make you question your worth?

Preparing for my audition for being a Disney character or performing tomorrow has been very stressful. Although excited, I am terrified. After all, the other girls will be thinner, prettier, more talented, and sweeter than me. That keeps repeating in my head.

Hearing the responses of my friends and family to this big event has been both helpful and disheartening.  Most people have given me great encouragement. Others promise to pray or think about me. Even my coworkers warnings about safety or horror stories all come out of a place of being helpful.

Still, I do not want to get my hopes to high. After all, this program will be amazing even if I am not a character. Sure, that is part of my dream, but I will love working attractions too. There is not a loss just because I am not cast as a princess. That is what I keep trying to remember.

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Recovery in the Media: #70. The Second Best Exotic Marigold Hotel

Second Best Exotic Marigold Hotel

This movie shows how there is no time like the present and age should never hold you back from living a full life.

70. The Second Best Exotic Marigold Hotel

Yesterday, I took a break from work and writing to see this film. As bright, inspiring, and witty as the first one, this movie made me feel warm inside and cheerful. Even better, the thought of growing old was less daunting. Because of the numerous hopeful messages, I chose this film to review on Media Monday.

Synopsis: Since the Marigold Hotel has been such a success with the elderly residents, the ever-optimistic Sonny decides to try to find a sponsor to open another one. However, this task turns out to be more difficult than he had supposed as he also prepares for his wedding while trying to fight off his rival. Meanwhile, the residents of the hotel have romantic decisions and life choices of their own to struggle through together. Evelyn and Douglas are somewhat in a relationship but both a bit anxious as Evelyn embarks on a new job. In a moment of drunken confusion, Norman unintentionally sets a hit man on his girlfriend Carol. Several new residents have moved in including a charming American, Guy Chambers, who Madge has her eye on although she is already stringing along two other men. Meanwhile, Muriel is helping Sonny but remains as cranky as ever. All the while, time continues to tick as the residents try to forget but cannot help but remember their age. Continue reading

Updated Bucket List

Hot air balloon

The hot air balloon ride that I went on back in September at my church’s festival.

Last June, I blogged my bucket list. For a while, one of my writing ideas was updating this list. So much has happened in the past year. Realizing what I have accomplished and what dreams have been added to my goals is important for me.

Looking back actually made me very inspired and hopeful. I accomplished more than I ever dreamed that I would in the past year and several months. Riding a hot air balloon, going to Oxford, a (short) relationship, returning to theater – it has been a huge year. I look forward to thinking back in 2015 and seeing my progress once again.

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